Tuesday, May 15, 2012

10,000 Joys & 10,000 Sorrows

Its an old chinese saying - 10,000 Joys and Sorrows. There will be joy and sorrow. On House last night, the crabby doctor said "life IS pain" And he's right. There is pain daily,growing pains.. learning pains.. emotional pain... And JoY! there is so much joy in each and every day! I think, I see.. that most people don't notice, they're too busy looking at the pain and marrying it. Afraid to open themselves to more pain, they reject what could become joy! Fully embracing half of life, the pain.. not the joy. Today, and all week, this keeps coming back to me. Someone I greatly love is in pain.. and within it there is joy. Pain of emotion, and Joy of emotion. Being let down, being hurt there is pain.... experiencing someone's love pouring out, a hand up, a smile, knowing you are so loved in the face of pain.. that is joy.. is it not? Would the joy be as big without the pain? The Park today was more lessons. I was laughing in joy, watching, photographing the ducklings.. so very tiny swimming and waddling around their mom. Sun, nature, my camera, my son.. pure joy... Then.. just like that.. the mother chases a rival duck away, leaving her babies exposed, and just like that... a crow swooped in and carried a duckling away! I screamed outloud, i couldn't stop myself.. it was so painful in that moment! I took to chasing the crow, no way I could catch it, but I tried. The poor duckling, happy and cherised.. then lunch. Jordan cried, and I began telling him it was okay. Then I stopped, told him I agree, it is horrible, awful, sorrowful! But it is life, it is the circle of life, and within that there is joy.. and there is pain. I will do my best to accept, to feel and to embrace it all. Live my life fully, full of emotions.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Occupy must Continue

Why Occupy must continue…

So much whining in the media about the daily cost of the movement.
The costs of Occupy are nothing compared with the costs of big business.

If Big Pharma was no longer allowed to market their massive amounts of drugs to us, if our food was healthy, if our air was clean, if our water was clear, if our soil was still healthy, if , if , if…

If big biz was not allowed free rein to destroy our lives, our bodies, our planet…. World health care costs would be drastically reduced. If the people still needed to protest after all that was gone, the cost would not bother anyone.

Why have we allowed our health to be pimped out to govt. and big business? Because they’ve created a system that wants that.

If you want out of that system, it will cost you. It’s cheaper on the wallet to follow the masses, to McDonalds and Wal-Mart; Burger King, KFC, Safeway and dollar stores. It’s harder to find fresh food, It’s more expensive to eat healthy. It’s almost impossible to get out from under pharmaceuticals and the notion your sick when it’s all around you every day. If our doctors are not even expected to learn about nutrition, only drugs, how are we ever supposed to be healthy?

These are the costs that make us suffer.

The costs of Occupy, are costs we must pay. And we must do it again and again, until we all learn HOW.

How do we start over? How do we get big biz agenda out of our homes and our bodies? How do we open eyes; that saving a buck today isn’t in your best interests, it most often comes with heavy costs to our planet. How do we help people understand every dollar they spend is a vote for the future they want? How do we explain to our government representatives that WE are important? We want to live healthy lives. How do we explain to the masses, we may have to spend more on our goods, that cheapest is not best. When consumerism is a religion, how do we explain to people they don’t need every new electronic, dollar store shopathons, fancy coffee all day long - especially at the cost of good healthy food. How?

I dare say, right now, No one knows how. This is why Occupy must continue. We’ve gotten so far of the humanity track; we need conversations all over the world to continue.! We need ideas thrown out to the global consciousness so they can grow and take root. We cannot continue how we are.

If the definition of insanity, is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results.. Then we are all insane. If we want something to change, and so many of us do… then something has got to change.


Let’s talk about it. Begin discussions at home, at work, on the street, social media. Talk to the guy next to you on the bus! We must talk, because something’s got to change!

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Grateful for my lessons in Empathy and Compassion

I'm eternally graetful to have been given the lessons in Empathy, Respect for life, Understanding and Compassion that life has gifted me with so far.

My gratefulness has been brought to mind, from some disturbing developments in our local education arena. A young autistic boy kicked out of school, public support to get the "special needs kids out" has made me cringe. I had to collect the articles and make some comments. I posted it on my autism blog, but wanted to share here, because it's relevant to all of my life. Obviously, my lessons from Autism are the biggest in my life, have shaped me, blessed me with so much growth!

Please hop over to that blog and read and comment, love to hear your input.

http://autismsdailylessons.blogspot.com/2011/04/special-needs-kids-have-bc-government.html

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Keeping my tank full so I can take on the world!

i so love you. Every time I know I'm going to talk to you, be with you, email you, see your face,(even on just FB) I feel love. Mom and I have been discussing meaning of life etc ( you know everyday conversations..lol) and the meaning of life, is most likely to raise the love/healing/love energy/awareness.. it increases all good things.. when I am with you and with mom, and both of our two boys.. I feel like a superhero. Like I can do anything, tackle anything, be anything.. with these amazing people, (who love me so I must be great, capable) behind and beside me, I am the most empowered, I feel so full of life, and energy, (and I can know what this is, because i've felt the other side. sucked dry of energy, sad/depressed etc at many other times in my life) this is the get up and go of progress and shared enlightement.. this is the awakeness that transforms and helps people grow and open to new ideas. I feel creative, imaginative, empowered, aware.. in your prescence.. and from you it spreads. Bless you so much for that.



The above, grammatically problematic paragraph, was originally a quick email to a dear person. I saw a pic of her ( a relative I truly love) on FB, and having been with her earlier, I felt the need to tell her what I was feeling.

When I finished typing, I realized all it said to me. (My truth as I see it)

We're here for however long ~ be it 1x, 2x, or infinity, depending on your belief- Excluding Einstein, maybe Newtown?, Nobel? and a handful of others, we are not going to be remembered long term on this planet.

In this lifetime, now, we have the opportunity to be a positive or negative force. We can leave behind positive energy, or negative energy. I believe we can increase the positive energy around us every day, and by doing so, we are healing. We are healing ourselves, we are healing all we come in contact with, we are healing the planet. In the long term, this energy collects, it grows, it influences on many levels. This is what we leave behind, what we CAN leave behind. Our legacy,shared with everyone.. positive energy/ Love energy/respect for all/CHI/etc.. We feel it every day, call it what you will. Positive Energy. We CAN leave that behind.

As I wrote above, when I am with someone who is curious, bright, energetic, positive, kind, loving, open to ideas and new concepts and thoughts, it is empowering. We have all felt that. You feel alive with alive people, and of course the opposite is true, negative people bring us down. We physically and mentally lose energy, our personal power seeps away around negativity.

I remembered today that we will always face, meet, have to spend time with those who are negative thinkers, who bring you down instead of boost you up. But we can make sure that we spend enough time with those who empower us, fill us up, energize us, forward thinkers who get us... being around them, so when we are faced with days where the "world" creeps in, we have armour. A full tank of gas, so even if it's a long day/ a long road.. you'll make it through.

I submit, that if we all kept our tanks full, there could be great change. If we stopped waiting til we were empty to take a walk with a friend, talk with your mom/son/cousin, if we remembered how important it is to be the best we can be and nurtured ourselves so we had the healing/loving/positive energy to give away to the world. I wonder what would happen. I'm going to try. I'll keep you posted.

A Karma Experience

I passed 4 styrofoam cups and a platter.

I felt ENGRAGED! I usually feel mad, upset, distraught, disgusted, occassionaly leaning into anger, but for some reason on this particular walk, I felt ENRAGED!

"OMG" I Harumphed loudly, alone on the street.
"Who/What/Why/Jesus!" My brain tripped overitself trying to yell and process my anger all at the same time.

"They will Suffer!" I (kinda) yelled onto my empty street and the invisible, evil litterers who'd been here. And I meant it. Seriously. For about 30 seconds.

Then it hit me. Hard. This is my suffering! This is my Karmic Experience, for I used to litter long ago! I dropped styrofoam (butts, paper, plastic etc) on a few streets in my early days, and this is my suffering.

To be so hurt by the litter I see, is suffering, and I acknowledge that I deserve karmic action for what I did not know then.

Will their suffering be the same? Will they suffer at all? ( I do think so) Is my slate clean now? (My mom noted that she thinks I'm now evened out on this particular issue, wouldn't that be nice!)

I will take away a few lessons from this, expand on what I felt/know;

We are all ignorant until we know. I don't need to judge people for what I see as their faults, we're all on a path, we all learn in our own time, in our own order. As a positive force I can teach more, show more, educate more when I'm in tune with karma and the laws of the universe, not trying to be the sheriff!

The world is FAIR - yin/yang - Karma will always get you eventually, so just do good! Okay, so that one I know.. but still.. Just do good!

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Being Grateful

*yes.. we are aware the word grateful is here 1 zillion times. We like life that way*

It's Thanksgiving weekend. I have no problem recalling all I am grateful for. There is so much.

I give thanks every day for the blessed life I have. EVERY day, I remind myself how blessed I am to have MY life.

I'm grateful to be alive. I'm grateful that I have free will. I'm grateful to live in a country where I'm able to use my free will and make my own choices, whatever they may be. With these things, I'm good to go. Thank you.

I'm grateful for everyone I've crossed paths with, they contributed to who I am today. Thank you.

I'm grateful for every mistake I've ever made, each experience helped me learn right/wrong, good/bad, also helping me be who I am today. Thank you.

I'm grateful for the copious amounts of SHIT other people brought to my life, somehow it was meant to make me grow, and often it did. Thank you.

I'm grateful for the challenges, all the things in life that made me buck up and face new things, they all helped me be stronger and stretch boundaries. Thank you.

I'm particularly grateful for the challenge of Autism. My son has brought intense joy, astronomical growth and richer, deeper love in so many of us. Thank you.

I'm grateful that I have a curious mind, and I'm able to access information and resources in many ways in my free country. I'm able to learn anything I wish, as much as I wish. Thank you.

I'm grateful for all of that big stuff, growing/learning stuff, and I'm so grateful for the daily joys, laughs, hugs and experiences I have on a day to day basis in this awesome world. Thank you.

I'm grateful for the people I can talk to. The people who make me laugh. My son! My Mom! My family. My girls. And all people in my family and circles that I've cultivated strong awesome relationships with. I'm grateful for all the people who inspire me, the people who teach me, The people who fight for the planet and the people who pioneer and light the way for positive growth! Thank you all.

I'm grateful for Gardening, soil, seeds, Vegetables, Fruit, Ethical/Sustainable food of all kinds,and BEING ABLE TO ACCESS THEM! Cooking, and the ability to learn to cook all the wonderful bounty I bring home!! MMMMMMM. Thank you.

I'm grateful that I live free in Canada, in Beautiful BC's most amazing city - Vancouver! I'm so grateful I can spend most of my days with my amazing son, travelling our city, learning, seeing, wondering together. Thank you.

I'm grateful for the Internet and Social Media. It's made it possible for us to connnect and share and learn and communicate like never before! Thank you.

I'm grateful that I've begun writing again and that a few people choose to read it. Thank you.

I'm grateful for the laws of karma and doing good! I'm grateful I deserved to, and managed to, bring a business home and work here and support my family for 10 years! Thank you.

I'm grateful for Music! Dark chocolate, Wii, Brett Dennen, Anne Rice, Al Gore, GreenPeace, Marc Emery,My TrackBall Mouse, Gluten Free Phil, Black Forest Bacon, Cast Iron,Heritage Meats, Cathedral World, Aquarium, Protesting, Vinegar & baking soda, digital cameras, Goats, Bokashi Bucket, Computers, Water Filters, Fridge, washer & dryer, public transit, organic food at Costco, My juicer, internet TV, Micheal Moore, chlorine free recycled kleenex,Bamboo utensils, Terracycle, Independent organic farmers, Dark (ethical) coffee with stevia and Almond breeze in the morning, my thesaurus, Scrabble, Sequence, Sun Yun Set Gardens, Lantern Festivals, Inukshuks, Waterfalls, Sunny Days, 4:20, Alaskan King Crab, Farmville (YES Farmville!)Value Village, Oprah, Survivor, Democracy, Playland, Dancing in the Kitchen.. and lots, lots more. Thank you.

Today I woke up thankful to be in the middle of a long weekend. My son, who is the best son in the universe.. is with his father for this long weekend, and I'm grateful to know they will have fun. I won't miss him "too much".

I'm grateful I'm able to have some free time. I'm very aware there are many who do not have a minute to themselves. I played on FB, I sang and danced with Brett Dennen and I prepped in the kitchen. I'm so very grateful that I'm able to have hours to do that. Later, I walked to Deer Lake, a large city lake, 5 min away. I am so thankful, I can go there whenver I want, and that today I did choose to go over by myself. I was able to take my time and sit on whatever bench I wanted, stop and take pictures of anything I wanted, for as long as I wanted.

It is so easy to be grateful when your sitting in a park. It is so easy to find beauty in the world, we just have to look for it. "Look,there it is."

The more I am grateful, the more I find to be grateful for. I am blessed. And If I choose to look at it that way, that's how it is and will be.

There is stuff in life that isn't always pretty/great/fun. I live through days that suck, we all do. We all have shit filled days sometimes, but they are just moments, and they pass. Especially if we are grateful, each day for each thing.

Try it. Be grateful more than one weekend a year, and see what happens.


Thank you.

Friday, October 8, 2010

It's simple - Is it a sad day or a happy day?

If you argue with the above statement, I probably won't convince you otherwise.

But, it is simple.

Every person wakes up in the morning. Every person puts their feet to the floor and begins the day.

There are people in the world sorting thru dumps all day with smiles on their faces, and there are executives waking up in mansions ready to go to Maui, that hate their lives.

I don't know that all happy people, conciously ask each morning, but I know that it is their decision. Today, I choose to be positive/happy. Today, I choose to see the bright side of life, I choose to "win some or learn some" (love that line from Jason Mraz " I'm yours") Today I choose to realize that not all moments will be joy filled, but they will all be authentic, they will all be moments I can learn from. I will have experiences today, good and not so good, that will help me become who I want to be, moments that challenge me, push me, help me see how far I've grown.


Others, you've met them I'm sure, choose to lament their life all day. "Poor me, poor me, why me, why now"

Our North American culture, promotes the idea that happiness is a given. We should all be happy all the time, it's possible to be happy all the time, don't you know? Buy more, do more, shop more, talk more, watch more and you'll be happy. If your not, perhaps something is wrong with you? You must need a better job, more money so you can buy more.. that will make you happy!

Who told us that happiness is a right? Who told us if your not smiling 24/7 something is wrong with you? Who made us beleive that we are better, if we're happy, that we don't belong, if we're not "happy" all the time?

I am at my personal best, when I remind myself of the phrase " 10,000 joys and 10,000 sorrows" Life is 10,000 joys and 10,000 sorrows. there will be both. That's it. There will be and there is nothing you can do about it. Realizing it's so, means that when the sorrows come, you see them for what they are, lessons. Important lessons to teach you to become who you're meant to.

Sorrows are necessary, to show us what the joys are. To help us experience the joys, we need the sorrows. When we see "sorrows" as lessons, they then become joys! "Thank you universe for this lesson, so I can be a better me!"

I challenge you to remember that in your day. Wake up and decide what kind of day you will have, and if it's a day with some "sorrows" see them for what they are, lessons to amplify your joys!

10,000 joys, 10,000 sorrows. Repeat when necessary.