Avoidance

I think I have finally realized that avoiding confrontation does not help me. I do not like confrontation, I've gone way out of my way to avoid it, often to my sanity's deterement.

I think I'm done with that.

It seems to only postpone the inviteable.

When confrontation tried to claim me yesterday, I dealt it differently. Someone called and wanted to yell at me. Many people know I don't like confrontation, so I've set myself up to be yelled at. People think this will shut me down, make me comply, roll over.. so to speak.

Yesterday, I stated " I will not be spoken to rudely, if you can't be nice, then email me.. I'm going now. bye"

I got said email, it was baiting me to argue. Nope.

Stated my truth, my disagreement with the issues stated, all the while remembering " It is none of my business what you think of me"
(In fact I could care less as I have no respect for you!)

I will not bow down, but I will not, ANYMORE, be bullheaded and fight you simply because I like to win.

In reality, I win, by living well. In reality, I win by ignoring your shit, dealing only with the facts. In the end, I'll win because I will be sane and happy. In the end, I'll still be happy, as I'm staying true to myself, being respectful of other's feelings...even if I disagree. In the end, I'll have joyous people surrounding me, loving me, respecting me for me, being respected and loved by me for being who they are...

I will be thankful to not see how living the other way ends.....