Monday, August 30, 2010

out of head onto paper

Let's see.. if I let all these thoughts flowing around swirly in my head, let them out? see what happens...

1st swirly thought today -
What you get out is what you put in/ reap what you sow/ give & receive etc... If you tell someone they are rotten, guess how they will behave? If you talk down to someone always, why would they strive to rise? If you want to know why someone is behaving in a certain way, yelling will not get you an answer. If you want to be treated with respect, you must treat others with respect. If there is a problem, especially with children, we must emulate proper behaviour AND as we are only human, if we "mess" up and show inappropriate behaviour, as we all will at some point, then we need to explain and/or apologize to our children and explain what proper behaviour would be. Our challenges are a bigger lesson for our kids than our easy days. If your having a problem with your child, in my opinion you need first to look at your own behaviour, and ask yourself what you are teaching!

2nd swirly topic -
So proud of myself! Took 1.5 hours this morning but I successfully removed a virus from my computer! Patiently, didn't swear one time, explained to Jordan what I was doing as I went!

Same topic - can't stop being choked that I had to remove virus this morning... it was supposed to be gone when I got up this morning. Seems fair that the person who presses the button allowing the virus to enter should be the one removing it.. However...

I will choose to take this a victory for me.. and allow the negative to leave.
I am a champion, not a victim! Woo Hoo!

3rd swirly topic -
Balance! Maintaining balance. I have such grand ideas every Sunday night/Monday AM, such balance I'll acheive with Jordan.. we'll work/chores/learn/play/clean/walk etc etc.. but then the day starts.. today's day began with him and his dad fighting at my door at 7 AM. My understanding and confidence in my day begins deflating at that point. "damage control" "raise self esteem" shine like lights in my head..I know already, I can't "push" him to complete today... today's balance will be about boosting self esteem, talking about problems, learning to talk to someone your disagreeing with.. and I'll have to be okay if we don't do math pages. Again.

My inner teacher says I must /must/MUST do more academic work.. My SELF says... "If we teach him math, but not how to deal with the world, he'll be a smart adult, all alone in his room playing video games" If he is confident, able to speak and interact in the world, with peers, with those who can teach him in life, if he can handle insults at 7 AM, not internalize that crap, and still face the day with a smile.. then he'll get math later won't he?

Last swirly topic
LOL - pretty much the same as above.... dealing with the various people in our lives can be very difficult. I need to remember more often, that these people are all in my life to teach me a lesson, sometimes that lesson is easy to see, sometimes not so much. Sometimes the reward is small... sometimes the reward is the most love I could ever imagaine possible.. Thank you Jordan, for making it ALL worthwhile.


  1. <3 Thank you Jordan for allowing your mommy to see.

    Love you Leah. It was a crappy start to the week it seems - but it'll be a grand finish as always, I'm sure!

  2. Thank you lovely lady. Love you too, tons! Yes, an interesting beginning for sure, still amazed I didn't freak out this morning.. full of pride now, handled things pretty well all around.. my son and i talked, a pretty good talk I think.. about sticking to what he said he'd do.. even if he doesn't like how others are acting (being a creep.. in his words..) We're prepared for bottle collecting already, my kitchen is clean, my thoughts are out. perhaps the difficulty and the rising above, will lead to a great week!